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Now that they gave me the source code I have set out to change the world. . . BRB!

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Sometimes I think solipsism is real and you're not...

Saturday, June 21, 2003

06/21/2003 9:35 PM -0700

There was absolutely no way Lennox Lewis "won" that fight.... NFW!!! He's all up there spoutin' off about how lucky Vitali is that they stopped the fight. WTF! Klitschko had it, and there are millions of witnesses who will testify to that. Get over it Lennox! Should there be a rematch, Klitschko's my man!

Friday, June 20, 2003

06/20/2003 6:04 PM -0700

It hurts my feelings whenever I go out to the casino and see some of my peeps out there pushing around a beverage cart. Some of them are straight out of high school, or are very young, and for them this is a job until they can get out of college or find something better. And that's cool. Everyone has to start somewhere. But some of them are further up there in years and should really be settled into their careers by now. It kills me to see them bouncing back and forth like little goldfish in a bowl going "coffee, water, pepsi?"

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I am ungrateful for the casino. I can still remember in the not too distant past when the only jobs in sight were seasonal jobs, like tree planting or fire fighting. Those who signed up for the fire fighting jobs would sit around for months and say "man, I wish there was a fire," translated into "I wish I had a paycheck so I can feed my family and take care of the bills." It was a sad situation. So when the casino did open, and people were earning regular paychecks, consumer confidence did go up. People were spending it as fast as they could make it. Bills were getting paid, rez cars were being ditched for nicer vehicles. It was a nice honeymoon period. But the honeymoon's over, and the novelty wore off. Consumer confidence is sporadic at best, and is dependent on the amount of our next per capita.

We were told that gaming was never meant to be the great white buffalo, but that it would allow the tribe to diversify by investing in other businesses. Problem is, there hasn't been any meaningful diversification since then. Sure money has been invested in other businesses, but the so-called "other businesses" have all been very casino related in order to create a "destination resort." Should the casino go, I'm afraid these other businesses will go with it. Now I'm not an economist, so I don't have any hard stats or other proof that this will happen, but I have yet to see any proof to the contrary. So it really does seem risky to me to keep putting all our proverbial eggs into the same basket.

In my mind I say to myself "self, there has to be a better way." And so it was this way of thinking that lead me to the "Beyond Coffee, Water, Pepsi Project" otherwise known as the Broadband Project. The intent of this project is not only to rollout broadband capacity throughout the reservation, but to encourage a knowledge based economy centering on technology. I mean true economic development can't happen if you are only focusing on the financial capital while ignoring the human capital. You have to develop your human capital in order for meaningful changes to occur. Enter technology. Technology has been proven to be a great tool for stimulating the most creative of minds, and we all know what great imaginations our people have. There are many many examples of this throughout Indian Country. It's high time we release their idle brains from the bondage of the coffee, water, pepsi syndrome and allow them to fully develop and expand into who they truly are - proud and noble people.

If you're not a part of the solution, then you're a part of the problem.

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

06/18/2003 09:50 PM -0700

I've been in Phoenix these last few days for the National Congress of American Indians session. It's been a while since I've been to NCAI, and it was kinda nice to see some people I haven't seen in a while. On the flight home I struck up conversation with the girl sitting next to me. There was nothing unordinary about her - she just seemed like the typical teenage girl next door. During the two hour flight she ended up showing me some of her pictures of her friends. I noticed that some of her girlfriends were in embracing poses, which I thought was a little curious, but didn't say anything. After a while she started pointing out that some of them are lesbians. I was surprised to find this out. They didn't look like the usual bull dyke types. I told her that I was glad to see that lesbians are starting to look more feminine and girly, and that I never could understand why someone would proclaim to be lesbian only to turn around and go out with another chick that looked and acted like a man. That just doesn't make sense to me, and seems hypocritical. I mean if you want a man, go out with a man for Christ's sake! Hello?? NO matter how much bull is in the dyke, they just cannot take the place of a man. Amongst other things, men have hard bodies that can't be duplicated by females. I always thought a true lesbian is one that will go after a woman because they are attracted to their soft cuddly bodies. And that goes for gay guys, too. I hate it when I see a gay guy go after another gay guy who is feminine. Again, if you want a woman FIND ONE! But if you are truly a gay man, you will love men because of the physical features that only other men have. OK, after having told her all that, she confessed to me that she, too, was a lesbian, sorta. She admitted that she also liked guys, so she was actually bi. I guess I should have known, but I didn't. Then we discussed the gay / lesbian thing for a while longer, and got into the whole gay phobia discussion, which is another thing that I don't understand. It's like, if you don't like gay men or lesbians, then simply don't go out with them! Other than that, it's like Live and Let Live. Everyone has a right to love who they want, and it's no-body else's biz-nass! Personally, I'm very comfortable with being straight, so the gay scene doesn't bother me. I think I woulda made a perfect flower child back in the day - peace, love, dove, baby!

Thursday, June 12, 2003

06/12/2003 09:39:47 PM -0700

Every once in a while (translated to 'almost every day' in rez time) my house seems like a zoo... every tv in the house is on, stereos blaring, nintendos & playstations going, everyone talking, laughing, or crying at once, people coming and going at all hours (they ought to design revolving doors into these HUD houses). Sometimes it is so much, even the lights and the internet seem to be loud.

It never happens like it does on the commercials where you get to "escape with a calgon bath." That's all some sort of sick hoax white people made up. It's more like this play I saw a few years ago "Angry Housewives...Eat Your Fucking Cornflakes." Not that the play itself reflects any part of my life, but the title just seems sooooo appropriate at times. And I know it's not just me. A visit to any rez USA, or even Canada, and this scene gets re-enacted over and over.....only the families change (probably to protect the innocent).

Monday I had this big press release with some big brass from DC, and when I went to dinner with them that evening they were talking about their families, and were inquisitive about mine. I'm like yeah, do they really want to know? I shoulda said "Hey, I just live right down the street on the border of moccasin flats. Let's just drop by my house right now and you'll know all you ever wanted to know about living on the rez..." I'm sure it would have cured their curiosity for life. If they only knew.... LOL.